Live like Yesterday is forgiven & Tomorrow isnt promised!

Today I lay here in bed on my blackberry blogging to the world about my new realizations.

Although we live our life mostly carelessly forgetting what we have, and taking that for an advantage. Like my blog title says: live life like yesterday is forgiven and tomorrow isn't promised meaning, we should try and forgive what has happened to us yesterday and move on why? Because tomorrow isn't really promised to you! Live you life the way you want to but that doesn't mean we should forget what our purpose here on earth is. Just like our environmentalist's are here fighting so we don't leave a carbon foot print, we should try and live life without causing damage to others.

Someone very close to my heart (pratically owns my heart), I see is getting damaged by a person...this person takes advantage of everyone, yes in essence that person is living out their life the way they want too but that doesn't mean that persone should not care about who they are damaging. I hurt by seeing that persons lack there of morals in his/her life. It really astonishes me how he/she can be so selfish. I've never in my life have met someone so selfish before! You hurt your family and you think that's okay? These people have been behind you since the day you were a fetus yet you can betray their trust, loyalty, and believement of you? I really can't believe what a waste of a human being you are to the world. What a waste you are to be given the life you have been living and you take it all for granted just to satisfy your own selfish reasons? I guess God has put you here on earth to show others what good people can really be, what the definiton of family is, what true love is? I just hope one day you will wake up from the fictatous world you live in and realize what you have before its literally to late for you. Going by that I hope that person who is very close to me is able to forgive that person who is causing so much damage but also to be able to stand ground on what you believe is right. Don't sink into the weakened side of you that wants to shelter, because we all know you can't shelter to protect, we must release and let them learn by themsleves. Of course its hard to see it happen but in the end the result of success is what matters.

I've also come to a realization over the past weekend that I can't always hold onto what I wish for. Yes I've grown attached to our friendship but I guess the recent lack of communication and unable to hangout mostly on my part has caused you to remove yourself from me. Although its not permant I feel that I only receive 25% of you at best, but that's okay we all get into different priorities. I know you have other things to concentrate on, you also have new relationships, and develped more of a bond with other people. Don't worry I don't take that into any offense I understand greatly. I'm still your friend and you still are my freind but not at best as you and I want it to be simply because I guess you can say we are drifting over things we have no control over. Ill leave our friendship right now as it is, an open door to expand when we both actually have the time to. I wish you the best with your new love, new friends, new relationship with your sister. I wish you the best really, and whenever your ready I'm here for you because I'm always ready for you.

I also have to learn to forget/forgive about my yesterdays but its really hard when its so damaging, but I'm handling slowly because I have good people around me. Given this situation to me when I was 5 years younger I don't think I couldve survived. But I am older much wiser much more rational. I learn that I have to just learn to forget because at the end of the day, they brought my life here. I cannot hate them forever nor can I be mad forever. I'm not really one to forgive but in this case I must pay my bias. So I do forgive because I know its because you love me and you have a lot of tense bottled up and when I say something or do something irrational you act irrational because you didn't expect that from me. I know you say it all the time I will eventually understand when I have my own, but I already do understand. Therefore I forgive.

Chirstmas shopping makes me so happy. A day to celebrate the joys in your life with the best people in your life! What more can we ask for? I am a sucker for holidays but for chirstmas espcially. Its not about the gifts its about giving the gifts and witnessing the enjoyment and happiness in the delighted faces, to know you caused that joy is just words unspoken. So cheers to the new friendships you've made, success in friends you've kept across the years, embrace in the family of love surrounding you and just bask in the JOY!

Everyone have a jolly holiday, new year is just around the corner! Set up your new goals for the year to come and go acheive! Remember don't be in comparison with those who don't acheive your only putting yourself with the uncapable! Aim high shoot high and you will GET HIGH!

(Sorry for the long blog I just have a lot to say)